Vikki’s World

she doesn’t…

29Nov08

love me.
want me.
need me.

is it over?
:’(

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So on Thanksgiving, Danielle and I didn’t talk. – Well we said like one word answers here and there, but other then that nothing else was said. Then yesterday she is all mad and upset and everything because we didn’t I just don’t understand…. the night before thanksgiving we fought and I hung up on her for being such an ass. (Once again – it’s like she loves to be an ass now) So I thought we both needed some space to cool it and stuff… but at the end of the night (thanksgiving night) I thought to myself “why do i have a feeling this is going to bite me in the ass later”… and guess what!!??!?! IT DID! She’s mad and upset with me and stuff, when honestly I didn’t do anything wrong but not talk to her to cool down. Now she’s thinking of breaking up and this and that. Fine, I can’t stop her.

If you look back at all the recent fights, everyone starts with you. I haven’t started anything with you lately. CAUSE IM FUCKEN TIRED OF FIGHTING ALL THE DAMN TIME!!!!!! But I guess your not. You love it now, or else you wouldn’t be such a dick to me. You cant even apologize. So once again I’m sorry for the night before thanksgiving when you were the asshole who started it all. Once again I’m sorry for not talking to you on thanksgiving thinking MAYBE FOR ONCE I SHOULD GIVE YOU THE SPACE YOU’VE ALWAYS WANTED WHEN WE FIGHT – TO COOL DOWN!!!! Sorry for that all the times we’ve fought, the ones I’ve started &&&&&& the ones YOUVE started too! Okay? Better? Are we good? Good – hope so. -_-

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14Nov08

So, today is like the worst day of my life. You swore to me that today would be our day, it seems as if its so far from that. I don’t think you want to be with mer anymore and that hurts a lot. I dont want to think about what if that were true… Im afraid that it is and I just dont want to believe it. I just don’t. Im afraid….

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09Nov08

All I want to do is die… I’m sorry.

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03Nov08

I don’t know what I did… what I do know is that I screwed up bad.
I know why you changed your mind on talking to G. He was waiting for you but saw me following next to you. So he went away. I wanted to come see G too. Walk you to her and Kiss you goodbye then go. How hard was it to do that? I want to know what I did so I could just try and fix it. I keep reading your posts…. I know their old, but some make me happy. I thought that today would be the best ever. You were allowed to see me, and even though it wasn’t for long I would have been happy either way. But ALL day today you seemed to be distant. I didn’t think I did anything. But I guess I was wrong.

You are the best girlfriend I have ever dated. You are also the best no matter what. Yo help me out when I need help. Though I frustrate you, you still help anyways. You make me smile and be happy – also stay sane. When we fight – I still love you. But I guess all these feelings I have for you – there just not the same when it comes from your side… It doesn’t feel like that at least. :/

Im sorry Im such a hassle – a problem – a puppy or w.e
So… now what?

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